I can still remember why I loved you. Why you made me smile and the way you would hold me. Even though none of this is important and I can never see you again, I find it crossing my mind. I thought that once I was away from you, this would all just disappear and it did, for a while.
I was excited to start a new life, do all the things myself that we said we would do together. I signed up for a lot, got accepted to the school I had been dreaming about. This all takes time, so now I'm waiting for the day I can leave.
I'm about to see a million things I thought I'd never see before and I, I'm about to do all the things I dreamed of and I don't even miss you at all.
That's a lie, I probably shouldn't want to go back and I feel like I'm cheating myself for even thinking about it. My life is at a stand still and this is where I don't want to be left behind.
I'm going to make memories here, new ones where I don't have to worry about you, who you're with or when we're going to see each other again. You said goodbye for the both of us.
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